I’m pretty good at avoiding commitment. It’s not that I’m not responsible, I just don’t like to committing to things. I realize without meaning to, I have committed to a healthier lifestyle this year. I have started hiking, moving my body, and trying to eat clean (foods found in nature and not processed).
This new lifestyle has brought a few surprises. I have started to lose weight (not that big of a surprise). I feel better, I have more energy, and I look forward to each day. One of my favorite things is hiking. I enjoy it more than I ever thought. I’m constantly thinking about when I can get on the next trail.
This week a crazy ultra trail running friend of mine asked if I would join her in a race. Before I had too much time to think about it I said yes. (I’m still trying to decide if that was a good idea). I committed to a 10K trail race in November. That gives me 12 weeks to prepare. The kicker is that I don’t run. I hike, but I really don’t run much (unless I get into a swarm of mosquitos).
So, with this commitment comes some new goals. Knowing myself well enough, I tend to be an all or nothing person. I tend to go running out of the gate and burn myself out or hurt myself quickly. I’ve had a whole life time of doing this. So, my goal is to take it slow and easy. To learn to be gentle with myself, to listen to my body, and to work towards a goal. These are all lessons I’ve never been good at.
My goal is to remember that this is fun. I’m not trying to win the race, I just want to finish the race.